Its been tough these past weeks for my family and I. At 4 weeks Isabella was already confined in the hospital as she had high fever. Then a few weeks after Noah got 40.6 degrees celsius fever and had to bring him to hospital twice. It turned out to be or is a middle ear inflammation. Now, to think it's all over and done with, our daughter is starting to cough. More than that, she is scheduled to have two vaccines tommorow, which therefore means she could also get fever yet again.
As adults we are all whiny and in pain when we are sick and so I don't want to even think and imagine what newborns and babies go through when they are sick. Especially for newborns for whom it is all new! The hardest thing to go through when you are a parent is seeing your child in pain or suffering. I'm sure any other parent would agree with me. You pray to God and wish that you can take away the pain. You even would compromise and you wish you were sick rather than them - they are still so small and fragile!
I majored in Biomedical Science so I more or less know how the body reacts to certain ailments, etc. But being a parent makes you feel helpless and you always want to look for assurance. The other day Noah sneezed out blood. From my medical background I would reason that this was due to the nose spray that dries up the nasal mucusoal lining. I would guess that the pressure from the sneezing would cause blood to also come out of the nose. But being a mother, I saw the blood, saw the confused look on my son's face and became worried. I had to act and so asked my husband to phone work to say he would be late as we were going to the hospital ASAP. Who cares if I have to wait in the emergency waiting room and if they take two seconds to look at him just to send us home again saying its nothing. At least I'm assured he is fine. At the end, I was right about the symptoms, but then went home with my child, reassured and with a light heart.
Every cough that hurts their chest, every cry after giving the supository medicine and when they shout 'no no don't' , that sniff that still doesn't allow your child to breathe through the nose properly - they are still so small how would they know how to breathe through their mouth? It hurts you so much!
Fact is, when our children are in pain, we parents are in more pain. It doesn't just have to be physical pain that our children go through for us parents to worry. In the future, our children will make mistakes and when they suffer, we will pain more. I realised we parents suffer more, because not only are our children in pain - it's worst to see your own flesh and blood suffering. Yet another quote I can relate to when my parents used to always say: 'I wish I could take away the pain from you'.
